My Writings

Monday, March 28, 2011

me so happy

Little Joe found a picture of Maddi and her boyfriend Dakota from a school dance. Joe Joe asked "who is this?" I replied "It's my sister and her boyfriend."  and he goes "EEEWWW GROSSSS"
LoL... He's only 3 years old which makes it even the more funny to me.  Love that kid, and love that he makes me laugh.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I NEED CONTROL....

I need to…

and gain…

Cuz if I don’t I’ll have way more of this….

(the fat) on me.
And I’d rather…

Than take up more space than I already do.

I Need An ipod

I had one but it broke… just stopped working.

I like ipods cuz you can create a play list and listen to the play list while you workout
and dance around to the music
http://static.poponthepop.com/images/gallery/julianne-hough-dancing-with-the-stars-costume.jpg

Monday, March 21, 2011

The Versatile Blogger Award

Thank you... This made my day Posie you're a sweetheart.  <3


The Rules:
1. Thank the person who loved you enough to bestow this gift
2. Share seven things about yourself.
3. Bestow this honor onto 10 newly discovered or followed bloggers– in no particular order– who are fantastic in some way.
4. Drop by and let your ten new friends know you admire them.

7 Things about me:
1. I am a new years baby :-)
2. I am shy/uber quiet... you could say I have social phobia
3. I am obsessed with vampires... If they really existed I'd love to be a vampire
4. Vampire Diaries is my fav TV show
5. I enjoy documentaries
6. I love to be around children because they know how to make me smile and forget about reality
7. I've known one of my best friends since I was born... that's a long time. 
10 people I feel deserve this award are:
1.My friend Chow Babe - I miss you <3 but I'm so glad you're accomplishing your dream of becoming a lawyer.  You Rock!!!
2. Jenn - You were one of the first people I started to follow on here, and you've been very kind to me and it means a lot to me.
3. On Life - (I know your name but I'm not sure if you would want me to say since this is an open blog) You've been so kind to me.  You're button is so cute.  Congrats on the baby.
4.  A Future For Tomorrow - you give a good message in your blog.
5. Nessa - Because you're so kind
6. Moonlight Mistress at ...A Better Part Of Me - Don't know you well but you've been kind to me.
7. All Because two people fell in love at The Life of The Milners - Love you guys
8.  Kehl Times at The Kehl Family Times - love you guys
9. Medusa - great posts
10.  Jenny Alama  It's The First Day of My Life - cuz you're awesome. 

someone made a counterfeit debit card with my info on it....

I woke up this morning with a racing heart feeling shaky from the bad dream I had and to find out that someone has made a Counterfeit of my debit card and was trying to use it. The magnetic strip holds information like name, number, address, and lots of other information and if the information on the magnetic strip does not have all the info correct then it gets denied. Luckily the counterfeit card they were using didn’t have all the correct information on it, so none of the transactions went through cuz they were all denied.
Yeah I feel sick, Anxiety, Down.

Thursday, March 17, 2011



I really like the the message this song gives....

BORN THIS WAY

It doesn't matter if you love him, or capital H-I-M
Just put your paws up
'Cause you were born this way, baby


My mama told me when I was young
We are all born superstars
She pulled my hand and put my lipstick on
In the glass of her boudoir
"There's nothin wrong with lovin who you are"
She said, "'cause he made you perfect, babe"
"So hold your head up girl and you'll go far,

Listen to me when I say"


I'm beautiful in my way
'Cause God makes no mistakes

I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don't hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you're set

I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way


Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain't no other way
Baby, I was born this way
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way

Don't be a drag - just be a queen
Don't be a drag - just be a queen
Don't be a drag - just be a queen
Don't be!

Give yourself prudence
And love your friends

Subway kid, rejoice your truth
In the religion of the insecure
I must be myself, respect my youth
A different lover is not a sin

Believe capital H-I-M (hey hey hey)
I love my life I love this record and
Mi amore vole fe yah (love needs faith)


I’m beautiful in my way
‘Cause God makes no mistakes
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don’t hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you’re set

I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way


Ooo there ain’t no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain’t no other way
Baby, I was born this way
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way

Don't be a drag, just be a queen
Whether you're broke or evergreen
You're black, white, beige, chola descent
You're lebanese, you're orient
Whether life's disabilities
Left you outcast, bullied, or teased
Rejoice and love yourself today
'Cause baby you were born this way
No matter gay, straight, or bi,
Lesbian, transgendered life

I'm on the right track baby
I was born to survive
No matter black, white or beige
Chola or orient made
I'm on the right track baby
I was born to be brave


I’m beautiful in my way
‘Cause God makes no mistakes
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way
Don’t hide yourself in regret
Just love yourself and you’re set

I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way


Ooo there ain’t no other way
Baby I was born this way
Baby I was born this way
Ooo there ain’t no other way
Baby, I was born this way
I’m on the right track baby
I was born this way

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

I was born this way hey!
I was born this way hey!
I'm on the right track baby
I was born this way hey!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

What are somethings that make you SMILE? :-)

I watch my neighbor's children and the youngest just got potty trained, I love that he get's so excited to tell me he made it to the potty in time.
Hearing the little kids telling me that they love me also makes me smile.
Getting hugs from people I care about.
Friends and Family
Dancing around while listening to music
Remember fun times.
Not worrying about anything is a big one.
what are some things that make you smile?

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Just the reminder I need. I need to treat myself with respect.

Friday my mom and I were talking and she mentioned to me that I am beautiful, that she wishes I could see the beauty in me. I tend to  find the negative in myself and I let it bring me down. As she said this I knew what she was saying is true, yet I find it so difficult to find the positive in me. Finding this article yesterday helped me  remember some things I've forgotten and  gave me a challenge that my mom is wanting me to do.
 I got online and saw someone posted in their  blog that our bodies are temples.   It's something I've been taught since I can remember, but also something I've forgotten. "Know ye not that ye are the Temple of God..." (http://www.thebeautywithinfoundation.org/2011/03/know-ye-not-that-ye-are-temple-of-god.html). Some things I like that she said in here blog are in italics
"The temple of God is holy, which temple ye are."
"How often do we defile our "temples" by obsessing over what we look like, how fat or thin we are, if our hair and makeup is just right, eating the wrong kinds of foods, overeating and then throwing it up or not eating at all, exercising too much or not at all, comparing our bodies to someone else, etc, etc? Sister Tanner says that she had problems with acne in her childhood and her and her parents did everything they could to take care of the problem. She even went without chocolate and greasy foods for years without any healing consequences. It was very difficult for her to fully appreciate the body which was giving her so much grief. But her mother taught her a higher law...she said to her over and over "You must do everything you can to make your appearance pleasing, but the minute you walk out the door, forget yourself and start concentrating on others."
"We should care about our appearance, we should make ourselves pleasing, but we shouldn't spend so much time worrying about it that we don't take the time to help others feel their best."

I like what David A. Bednar said in his talk at Ricks College in 2000, "Imagine the reaction you or I might have if we saw defacing graffiti on the exterior of one of our Church’s temples(if your not the same religion as I am then something you find sacred). The very thought of finding such inappropriate markings on a temple is offensive to all of us." How do you think god feels when he sees what we do to our bodies, with our thoughts, or physical actions to ourselves?

Susan W. Tanner said to the young women, "Satan learned these same eternal truths about the body( The great principle of happiness consists in having a body. The Devil has no body, and herein is his punishment), and yet his punishment is that he does not have one. Therefore he tries to do everything he can to get us to abuse or misuse this precious gift. He has filled the world with lies and deceptions about the body. He tempts many to defile this great gift of the body through unchastity, immodesty, self-indulgence, and addictions. He seduces some to despise their bodies; others he tempts to worship their bodies. In either case, he entices the world to regard the body merely as an object. In the face of so many satanic falsehoods about the body, I want to raise my voice today in support of the sanctity of the body. I testify that the body is a gift to be treated with gratitude and respect."\

I can relate to what  Julie K. Kennard said in her talk Mirror Image 

"I hated looking in a mirror. I hated buying clothes. I hated running into people I knew before I got sick. I hated myself. I was stuck in a downward spiral of self-loathing. I was also struggling to accept the fact I couldn’t do everything I used to do. I simply didn’t have the health to do everything anymore. I hated this body I had that hurt all the time and kept getting sick. I felt I was stuck with a fat, ugly, sick body."
This is how I've been feeling lately, what my mom was talking to me about in the car the other day.
"We hear all the time in Young Women that our bodies are temples. And one day I had a flash of understanding. It didn’t matter if my body was fat or skinny, it was a temple. I’ve never heard anyone make fun of the way the temples look, so why do we do that to our personal temples—our bodies? I realized that every time I felt bad about my body, I was being ungrateful for and disrespectful to a temple. I remembered that one-third of the hosts of heaven didn’t even get mortal bodies."
"I knew the Lord didn’t care what size dress I wore. He cared that I was clean and worthy. I had kept my own temple pure. In those mirrors I could appreciate what a beautiful gift my body was.
I am not stuck with my body; I am blessed with it."

I really like what Viki F. Matsumori said in her 2002 talk Sharing Time: Ye are the temple of God "The temples of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints are unique. The Salt Lake Temple in Utah has gray granite walls and six spires. It looks different from the Cardston Alberta Temple in Canada, which has natural stone walls and no spires. Even though each temple looks different, all are beautiful and are built for the same purpose." That goes for each one of us too, we are all different, we are all beautiful, and we are all here for the same purpose to receive a body, be tested, to be able to return to live with our Father In Heaven. "You are like the temple. You are different from everyone else, but you, too, are a house for the Spirit of God."
"Just as you treat temples with respect, you should treat your own body with respect. You can do this by obeying the Word of Wisdom...by dressing modestly, and by following the counsel of President Gordon B. Hinckley to “be clean”...You should also keep your heart and mind clean by reading, listening to, and watching only “things that are pleasing to Heavenly Father"

 Lets treat ourselves with respect. <3

Monday, March 14, 2011

what's the best way to prevent a binge from happening?

I feel as though when I start to eat that's all I do the rest of the day EAT EAT EAT... So I've tried fasting to keep me from binging but that ends up in a binge.  So now I'm thinking I need to find something to help me avoid binging.
I posted on facebook that I need advice on how to avoid binging and they said
Food journal deff!!
Planning in advance. I usually wake up knowing I am going to binge, so I plan to restrict that day to about 600-700cals, instead of fasting or restricting to the lowest cals. I find that if I know I'm going to binge and I fast or restrict to 300 calories, it spurs on the binge more.
I eat something small every few hours so I won't binge
What are some things that help you so you don't binge? 

Thursday, March 10, 2011

The Music Game.... Astoria Paranoia

1. Put your music library on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write that song title as the answer to the question, no matter how silly it sounds! Most of the time they seem to work though, strangely enough.
4. Ok, go!

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "ARE YOU OK?" YOU SAY?
Stand by your man 


2) WHAT'S YOUR NICKNAME?
All That I've Got


3) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Stepping Out


4) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GIRL?
Your Stories, My Alibis


5) WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE DOING RIGHT NOW?
Claire De Lune


6) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Hard To Say



7) WHAT'S THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF IN THE MORNING?
 Learning to fly



8) WHAT'S YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE?
Stand Up For Love


9) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Send Me An Angel 


10) DESCRIBE YOUR HOUSE
Naked


11) WHAT'S YOUR OPINION OF THE MORNING?
Forever Road


12) WHAT'S YOUR OPINION OF THE AFTERNOON?
Waterside


13) WHAT'S YOUR OPINION OF THE EVENING?
...Baby One More Time


14) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Mystic Invasion


15) HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Creep


16) HOW WAS YESTERDAY?
HELP


17) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Fall To Pieces 


18) WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Gone Daddy Gone


19) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Jesus Loves Me


20) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR DAY TOMORROW?
There For You




21) WHAT IS 2+2?
The Restoration Medley: Joseph's First Prayer/Praise to the Man/Sweet Hour




22) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Mic Chick


23) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Tomorrow Never Dies


24) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Party Hard



25) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
We Run




26) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Going Away


27) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
When Your Eyes Say It


28) WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Dead




29) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
I'm Moving On


30) WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR WEDDING?
American Honey


31) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Right Now


32) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Dear My Friend


33) HOW WAS HIGH SCHOOL?
Music Box Memories


34) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Dragula


35) WHAT KIND OF FIRST IMPRESSION DO YOU GIVE?
Soco Amaretto Lime


36) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Fear of the heavens


37) HOW DO YOU FEEL WHEN YOUR DRIVING?
Who's going to ride your wild horses


38) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Astoria Paranoia