Help Us Name Our New Puppy

Got a new puppy it's a Chorkie it's a mix between a Yorkie and a Chihuahua the puppy is a GIRL... and she still has no name.

Since we got her she's helped my depression quite a bit... I have something to live for. She makes me smile and laugh... She's is such a great friend. 

What are some girl dog names... we need help naming her.

I am confused

I'm not doing well, I dunno what it what anymore
I dunno if my anxiety is my depression or if my depression is my anxiety.
My blood feels like it's been poisoned
I'm feeling weak... physically and emotionally weak.
I dunno if  I can do this anymore.

Couldn't sleep last night so I wrote a note...

I'm going to try to not go into so much detail cuz it is personal...And I'm going to share this with my counselor

To whom it may concern
First I'd like to say SORRY. SORRY for being WEAK.  SORRY for not being STRONG enough to STOP you. SORRY that I didn't let an adult know what was going on.
I've thought of some reasons why I may not have told...
1. When this happened the first time I told and it ruined his younger sister friendship with my sisters.
2. Age difference, I should have been able to stop you.
3. Fear of no one believing me
4. And fear of others just writing this off like it was no big deal.
... But the fact of the matter is I didn't tell. And I'm truly SORRY I didn't tell.

Now I want you to try to understand how I feel.  I HATE my BODY.  I feel like guys look at me and think of me as an OBJECT, not a person with feelings.  I AM A PERSON AND I DO HAVE FEELINGS.  I DO MATTER.   I feel uncomfortable around guys... I don't TRUST them.  I don't want to OPEN up just to get HURT.   I don't want any guy to want me in a sexual way, even my future husband... I don't want that. It's just degrading to me. And I don't wanna feel degraded or dirty or hate myself even worse than I already do.
You were one of my BEST FRIENDS and I TRUSTED YOU.  You betrayed that trust. Asking... well BEGGING sometimes even threatening me until I gave in... and there were times you just wouldn't take NO as an answer.

I don't have good coping skills. And with all the hurt and pain I deal with everyday I take it out on me with negative coping skills.
Cutting. 

Numbing myself with pills and with purging 

Why did you hurt me?
Why did you use me?
Why did you lie to me?
Did you get what you wanted?

For some reason I keep thinking to myself... YOU WIN!!!! I don't know what I mean by that, but YOU WIN!!!

I'm so MAD MAD MAD

My mom went though my things found a tube and this syringe type thing and she took it gave it to my dad and he took it back to the store.  I'm 25 they don't have the right to go through my things like that. I'M SO DAMN MAD at them right now.

I'm Not CURED... HELP!!!!

Have anyone of you been in a treatment center for ED's or Depression or some sort of treatment center? 
I went into UNI (Hospital Psych Ward) for a week.  It was nice I was not being tempted to hurt myself in anyway, I wasn't being reminded of this Jerk I know everytime i walked outside. (hell i couldn't really go outside in the first place.) I actually felt quite better there, than I do at home.   They made me promise that I wouldn't purge, cut, or take pills that would make me be numb.   I feel like i have to be cured.  I'm not cured though.  I still have thoughts of purging, cutting, and I'm taking pills to be numb... cuz I can't stand the pain, hurt, i'm feeling inside of me.  I'm ashamed to ask for help because I feel like I'll be letting my parents money go to waste cuz I'm not cured of this HELL.  I dunno what to do... I'm asking for help advice on what you would do if you were in my shoes?  I don't wanna live life like this. 

My VENT PLZ READ ME!!!!

I am having a hard time.
I just want to be numb.  I don't want to feel.
I HATE my body.  My legs, arms, face, middle (stomach/back/sides), and my bum.  I'm just so FAT.  and I can't ACCEPT it.  I can do so well with restricting, and fasting during the day then around dinner time I start to binge on everything in sight. Whenever I eat I get so mad at myself.  I have NO CONTOL, NO SELF DISPLIN.  I look at myself and I say to myself  WHY AM I EATING? I don't need to eat, I have enough FAT on my body that I should not be eating this "poison."   And then I take a bite.  I don't even enjoy food, I hate it... I hate me.

I went to UNI (hospital psych ward) for a week in August, cuz I OD on some pills, and I was cutting everyday. =(  It was good for me to get away, from all the temptation I was dealing with (with hurting myself).  Well since I've been in UNI I feel like I need to be CURED of my DEPRESSION, but I'm not CURED.  I still have THOUGHTS of hurting myself.  Cutting, Pills, and Purging.  I just want to be NUMB.  I feel nothing works... The anti depressant PILLS, going for a walk, working out, deep breathing.  I'm TIRED of FIGHTING this but TERRIFIED to stop fighting.  I want to stop my anti depressants and never take any again... but SCARED of where I'll be without the pills.  I know I need to tell my parents how I'm feeling BUT I'm feeling too ASHAMED that I'm not cured, that I'm still having these thoughts.   I'M BROKEN

I'm feeling Like I'm also starting to lose my FAITH.  In my paritchal blessing it says I'll get married one day and I'll be able to raise a family.  How can I do that if I've NEVER even been on one DATE?  People tell me everyday that I'm so beautiful. If I'm so BEAUTIFUL why don't guys ask me out?  I feel all ALONE, UNLOVED.  I can't deny God cuz I know he has answered my prayers before, but I'm losing my FAITH that I'll ever be LOVED by guy.
=(

I HATE this... I HATE DEPRESSION... I could NEVER wish this upon anyone.

HOW DO I LET THIS ALL OUT????

All i think about is him. I just want him to email me. I know i shouldn't want that but i do. I want closer... I want him to tell me he's sorry or to step up and be a real friend not a damn user. I HATE HIM yet I LOVE HIM!!!! UGH
FOOD FOOD FOOD why don't i have any control All i do is binge binge binge. Why can't i stop?  I can do well then 4pm hits and I start eating everything in site. I hate my body I hate me. I hate my legs. I hate my arms and i my core i hate my fat bum i hate me.
I have no social life.
Everyone tells me I"m beautiful if i'm so damn beautiful then why have I never been on a date? why don't guys talk to me?  why am i so unattractive to them?
I feel worthless.

went to the drs.

cuz my ear has been bothering me. and the dr. said that my inner ear is swollen. thus it feels like why there is something in there.  He gave me drops... hope they work if not then I'm complaining some more to him cuz i'm so sick of ear problems.

UGH SREAM

WHY DON'T I HAVE CONTROL?
I DO SO WELL UNTIL 4:00 HITS AND THEN I EAT EVERYTHING I SEE.
WHY DON'T I HAVE ANY CONTROL?
I HATE THIS HATE THIS HATE THIS.
HATE MY BODY,
HATE MY REFLECTION
HATE HATE HATE