I feel like I have nothing important or interesting to say
Well I figured out I absolutely love the way alcohol and weed numbs me not just my emotions but my body also. I love the passion out aspect of it. So hard to admit but if I were offered heroin or even Fentanyl I would probably try it just to do the nod off. I really hate feeling.
I need to work on trauma.
I will try to talk about the trauma and I cry and can't even say the name it's like I forget how to speak, so I just say neighbor.
Figured out I also have trauma from my Surgeries as a child with my ears.
I'm stopping therapy with Valley Behavioral Health because I feel like a child/toddler the way they treat me. More on that later
